Meet Rachel.

Right now.
No sleep since 8am yesterday.
My eye's twitching. How lame.

Other then that, I can't wait until this semester is over. And it's christmas and awesome. oh yes. I can't wait to see all my friends in the same place. at the same time. It's going to be so good for me. I know it.

What did I do wrong?
What happened?
I don't like it.
And I don't know how to fix it.
blah.

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You know, I always wanted to ride in one of these things. It's on my to-do-before-I-die list. I bet it's wonderful and magical up there. I should get on this.

Oh yeah, I wish it was friday.

I don't know what's going on.
I never fall this fast.
Ever.
I'm a little scared.
And a little excited.
I like it.

Other then that,
I can't wait for this weekend.

I did just make an epic entrance into my dorm room.
Running, soaking wet in a high wasisted skirt from lot X is an epic time.
Enough said about that.



PICTURE OF THE DAYYY MOMENT. I'm pretty sure I was fifteen and stupid in this.


I've been thinking today about how much things have changed in the last few years. Even the last few months I should say. I've been thinking about... If I like the person I'm becoming. I think I do. I hope If I could go back and see myself now, I'd be proud. I'd be proud of who I was and who im becoming. I hope I would. I really do. I feel like i've changed from who I thought I used to be, but that's a good thing after all. Right?

I don't know why I'm being so odd today.
I think I have water in my ears.
I should fix that.

I'm failing college.
Greattt.
Sigh.
I'm going to be okay. I know I am.
Other then that, Life is good. For now.

But im not gonna. Because I just wanna lay here and die for the rest of my life.
Thank you.

New Taylor CD's never fail to make me so so so so so happy.

Sitting in my room with both of my roommates sobbing because they just so happened to breakup with their boyfriends on the same night.

ohmymymymymymymymymy.

maggard_man: lol
maggard_man: how is jacob
Melissa Combs: I dunno man
Melissa Combs: haven't seen him in ages and damn glad of it.
maggard_man: last i heard you were his gal
Melissa Combs: What/
Melissa Combs: ?
maggard_man: yeah
maggard_man: one of his family friends said he was going out with a redhead named Melissa
Melissa Combs: You're joking right?
maggard_man: no
Melissa Combs: That's creepy.
maggard_man: yeah
maggard_man: i laughed at first but they were serious
Melissa Combs: Um... maybe he is and it's just some other girl?
Melissa Combs: Idk man.
Melissa Combs: That creeps me out.
maggard_man: how many redheads named Melissa goes to uk
Melissa Combs: Idk!! I don't wanna think about it. -.-
maggard_man: yeah just watch your back ok
Melissa Combs: Yea man.
Melissa Combs: Gonna have to tell Jarrod and Dave about that
Melissa Combs: that's weird.
maggard_man: yeah just a little though
maggard_man: he has been known to do this
Melissa Combs: For sure.
Melissa Combs: But he better not do it to me.
Melissa Combs: He doesn't know what kinda hell he's in for.
maggard_man: maybe he does
Melissa Combs: Buuhhh

That's it. I've died. Bahahaha. I miss high school at times like these.

I'm so unhappy. For no reason at all.
I don't know what's wrong with me.
Everything was going fine. School was fine. Horrible, but I mean, I was dealing okay.
Nothing has happened during Fall Break to make me this way. I don't get it. I don't. But now, im sitting here crying for no reason at all. BAHH. BAHHH. Shoot. =(

Sigh.

Anyway, I really love my friends. I'm pretty sure i saw all of them at one point during the break, and I just...love them. I ate with Melissa today, and I really hate when I have to leave her. She got me this bracelt thing and this note that she'd wrote me. For no reason at all. I almost cried. Because i'm just strangely emotional for no reason. I just like, cried on her when I had to leave because I'm all lame and horrible. Sighhh. I saw Kellee today too. We just went and watched the PCC drama team do Sleepy Hollow because we're just really lame. But it was good, and Kellee is my little cute pick me up. Always. I miss my best friends. A lot.

I guess I have to go back to school tomorrow. This is stupid. I'm just going to drop out. Just take me somewhere else. Anywhere else.
sigh.

Everytime I come back to school I feel like I never left?
Lame.
But Fall break is this week.
Yay for two days off.

My life has changed forever.
Go me.

I think this is a good thing. Maybes. Just maybe this is what I was meant to be.

Other then that...
School sucks. I can't wait to be in a place with anything whatsoever.

I'm not wrong this time.

I'm going to marry Julia Nunes.
It's official.
http://www.youtube.com/user/jaaaaaaa?blend=1&ob=4#play/uploads/62/yuLuiClUIJ8

"So, this is my life. And I want you to know that I am both happy and sad and I'm still trying to figure out how that could be."

Such a good book. And such a good quote. And so perfect for me right now. I don't know what to do anymore. Im trying to make the best of things, but I just.... Im not sure anymore.

I really want to leave this place.
And be with my friends again.
Please?

Sittinnnng here until 8:45 when I have to go work. Boo. Lame. Not cool. Sigh. I have three classes tomorrow, one of them being P.E. Now, what can i possibly learn in P.E? Not a thing. Not a lame worthless thing. BOOOO. I'm going insane over here. Really. All i do is talk crazy and ask what day it is. I'm bringing Apples to Apples next week and everyone's in on playing though. So maybe thattttt one will be fun. I need to shower and shave and jump of a cliff. Although, I don't know if i'll do it in that order. Why go through trouble shaving if i jump off a cliff after?

Sigh. Work.is.lame. =/

I am so bored. Sitting in my dorm room and i have 5 hours until my meeting. Where, by the way I learn how to be a janitor. So exciting. School is okay. From what i've had of it so far, I have my first class tomorrow, sooooo maybe i'll see how that goes. There's nothing to do here. I've been to Hazard three times and almost died everyyyy time. Casey moved out, and I think Chrissy is moving in. Everyones from Perry Central sticks together, it's kind of sad. Anywayyy, My roommate is fun and makes countless hours of just sitting in the room a lot better. I've only took two showers since i've been here. Such a skankkk. I hope this gets better. Everyone here is fun, but we're stuck over in the middle of god knows where usa. Someone help. I can't wait to go to UK. Can't waittttt. Most common phrase used here: "FML". Explains it.